My first love?
Yes.
My first
experience? No.
The love of my life?
Do you really
want to know?
Fifty years have gone their way,
Since it was we
parted.
And not a day of them went by,
But I was
brokenhearted.
I've had many lovers in that time,
And they were
good and bad.
But none did stay to last the course,
For I was always
sad.
In their eyes I'd search for him,
And in their
fond embrace.
It was unfair of me I know,
This quest for
that heart-race.
Only he had that effect on me,
He'd lift my
soul on high.
I still remember every time,
And then I start
to cry.
Why was life so cruel to us,
With that brave
new start?
Neither of us wanted it,
It ripped our
love apart.
A secret love, as times demanded,
One so
misunderstood.
Tender, young and beautiful,
And everything
that's good.
Too young was I
to stay behind,
Too young was he
to follow.
Promises to write fell through,
And that's a
case for sorrow.
As each year passes, more and more,
I yearn to see
his smile.
Just once more, for old time's sake,
To hold him for
a while.
Is he still alive, I ask?
Has life been
good to him?
I hope it has, I really do,
Wealthy, fit and
trim.
I have a million words for love,
Unending, they
go on.
Forbidden then; forbidden now,
All those words
are: John.